Me, Myself, and I

First and formost, I suppose I should state why I started this blog. I am writing this for my sister to read while she's at work : ) and for my friends and family to know what's going on in my life. I don't have a journal, so I figured a blog was the next best thing.

I guess I should start by saying I'm a freshmen in college and it's be the roughest year of my lifeee. Reality check? Yes. Never did I think college would come with so much responsibility. I quickly learned that professors don't care if you show up or not, if you do your work, if you pass or fail. It's all about self dicipline, which I have next to none. I'm slowly learning how to balance my time and put more into my studies (seeing how I'm doing terrible in my biology and chemistry classes). I also have discovered that I want to be a math teacher, so these science classes are meaningless now! I'm surviving though, only two more months and I have four glorious months of summer vacation!

Spring break starts friday for me, and I'm actually not all that excited about it. My boyfriend and I recently broke up and it's really been taking a toll on me. Well, I guess that would make him my ex then. But anyway, I'm not looking forward of an entire week with nothing to do but mope. However, I'm trying my hardest to occupy my time to distract myself from reality. My wound will heal with time, but wow, it feels like it's taking for ever. I just want this chapter of my life to be closed and the next open because I know there are tons of great opportunites out there.

I recently have become better friends with two people. Joshua, who lives across the hall from me, is 24. He's literally like my mentor and knows exactly what to do everytime I aquire a new scar on my heart. I run to Josh for everything, and I don't think he knows how much his friendship has helped me pick myself up from my lowest of lows and move on. He's slowly been picking up the peices and gluing me back together. Brittany happens to be my ex-boyfriends, best friends, ex girlfriend; now there's a tounge twister for ya! Since Brittany's and mine's ex's (wow, I'm not exactly sure how to word that) are roomates together here at college (yes, all four of us go to the same college) we spent a lot of time last semester together. It wasn't until recently when we both broke the ties with our boyfriends (and then they moved on and we didn't) was when we become good friends. I wouldn't be where I am without her in my life these last few months.

Well, that's enough of the sob story. Tonight should be a good night. I'm goin' out with Josh and Brittany and we're going to have an awesome time. Tomorrow I have one class for an hour and then friday I have three classes then heading back home to see my parents : ) I miss home a lot. I feel like it's the only safe place I have lately.

I guess that's probably enough for today. I'll probably post tomorrow either venting or gushing about what happens tonight : ) I'm making the best of it!




"I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone"